Showing that smile again in the midst of growing pains

“Show me that smile again
Don’t waste another minute on your crying
We’re nowhere near the end
The best is ready to begin.”

I have growing pains. No, that is not a declaration of acquiring the beloved 90’s TV series on DVD or a reference to how my pants don’t fit properly anymore. I’m talking growing pains – the “I’m growing up and I’m an adult but I still don’t know what to do with my life and I know I’m not going to be an astronaut anymore but I just am not sure where this whole thing is going” type of growing pains. If it were up to me, I’d rather this be about Kirk Cameron, but it’s not.

I really am not trying to complain. Quite frankly, this all seems a little self-centered. I feel like Derek Zoolander, staring at a mud puddle, asking “Who am I?” His question is mine lately…”I guess I have a lot of things to ponder.”

I remain unconvinced that there is one solitary thing every person was meant to do and until you find “the thing” you will forever feel like a piece of driftwood in the sea. But I am starting (I’m a little slow) to see that there are things I probably should NOT be doing…which makes me think that there are probably things that I should be doing too. This is a question I posed to some of my friends…what is that thing or things I should be doing that if I weren’t, someone somewhere is getting robbed? I don’t think this is a egotistical question. On the contrary, I think it’s the opposite – the opportunity to be in a place where others are truly benefiting because I am being what they need me to be. Ironically, the journey to serve others in this way has begun with a whole lot of me. Honestly, I’m ready to be done.

[end note: as my header says, i’m just talking this through. please don’t feel “guilted” in any way to tell me how great i am. i hope i’m not that shameless!]


7 thoughts on “Showing that smile again in the midst of growing pains

  1. i think there is a bit of feeling like driftwood lost at sea in all of us. i really think we were designed that way. a reminder that something better awaits all of us.

    hang on to that…

  2. yeah, i guess in a way i agree with cindy – we have a longing for completion that will not every really happen in this life…

    but i think that it is incomplete. i would hate to think that God wants us to be unhappy in this life just so the “next” whatever that may look like – is all that much sweeter. i do think he wants us to find our passions, embrace them, and chase after them…

    we need to ask ourselves if we’re willing to choose the difficult task of actually doing that… i know many discontent people that would be more content if they did what they love doing rather than survive and hate what they do. i’ve seen it over and over again.

    i think your quest is noble… it takes courage to ask those questions of yourself…

  3. if you’re looking to rekindle your love for kirk cameron, you should check out his new moview “fireproof” in theaters now…

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